Lena’s Life – The Unbearable News (5)

Dearest reader,

In my last entry I was most unsettled and profusely in despair. I am afraid my condition has not much improved, only now I can write.

Of course I must relate what most awful thing has come about to cause such consternation. My aunt went to the post office two days ago and when she came back she brought with her the most dreadful letter, and even more dreadful news. She has been asked to attend her cousin abroad!

Of course there are a number of distressing things about this. But firstly, and most importantly, my dear Aunt Cora agreed to this absurd plan- and is leaving me for three entire months!

I don’t know what I shall do with myself without her. No one to pluck twigs out of my hair, no one to scald me, no one to embrace. My father is of little consolation in this regard.

The other most upsetting fact is that my dear Aunt shall be attending a different young lady ABROAD. Oh I can assure you that no one longs to go abroad as I do. There is barely anything I want more. What great novels I would write if only I could have the experience of change and culture!

I do not know this Miss Swede that my aunt shall attend, but it upsets me greatly that she goes and leaves me alone in this little old village while attending a different girl to go see the sights. I am distraught.

Of course, Aunt Cora cannot be wholly blamed, for she has a slight obligation to the mother of this Miss Swede. Apparently Mrs Swede kept my Aunt Cora under her roof for many years and even taught her French. So I suppose it is a necessity that she returns the favour. But oh, I am most jealous, even after Aunt Cora quoting the Bible to me. I don’t think God ever had to stay in a village whole His favourite person went overseas. But anyhow, I’m sure I’ll see this entry as complete nonsense later.

I am to continue my life as before after Aunt Cora leaves in a week. “As before” is a ridiculous phrase considering the circumstances. I shall never be able to continue as before without my dearest person here to guide me. We shall see how soon I turn my life to a shambles without her.

I believe I need prayers.

Yours truly,

Lena.